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April 17, 2003

No fear, Be here!

stress : n.
A mentally or emotionally disruptive or upsetting condition occurring in
response to adverse external influences and capable of affecting physical
health, usually characterized by increased heart rate, a rise in blood
pressure, muscular tension, irritability, and depression.

Stress is the word I have used most to describe how I feel right now. A lot is changing really fast and so much is still up in the air. I would say I am afraid, scared of the changes and the challenges ahead. More then anything it is the uncertainty of what will happen in the next couple of months. So I count my blessings, get some exercise, and try to be at peace. Zen is a leaf in a river, or as one of my favorite video game characters says “No fear, Be here!”

April 16, 2003

From the fear what you do not understand quiz!

Ok, you read CNN evey hour, you are informed and up to date... right. Lets see... here is a map of the middle East see how many countries you can match before you get one wrong? (thanks to Karen for the link)

Scroes so far
Me ... 16 ... mixed up Jordan and Syria.
Mark (3horn) ... 22 ...on his second try due to a island problem.
James ... 9... keep swinging.

Got to love Sinfest!

Saddam sighting in Yemen: Scraggly fat man wearing nothing but a military beret seen bellowing, "A camel! My regime for a camel!" - Sinfest

Gone with the wind

What a week… I flew out on Sunday night for an hour and a half meeting Monday on the West Coast. Thursday I fly to out again and back on Saturday morning. Then next week I am back out there for 3 more days. I am already wiped out.

Did I mention how much I hate traveling...

April 13, 2003

It is bad when I catch errors on CNN

"Kut cleanup: Blasts resonated through Kut Sunday, the same day U.S. Marines peacefully took control of the city, as U.S. forces exploded thousands of mortar rounds, water-propelled grenades and long-range artillery shells left behind by Iraqi soldiers"
- from CNN WAR UPDATE page

Proof that super-soakers are dangerous! Could this be the weapons of mass destruction we worried about or just a very bad editing job.

April 07, 2003

more time…

I have good news and bad news, the good is I have found a job. In a fortunate turn of events an opening came to move inside the company I work for now. It sounds like a good fit for my personality and I like the people I will be working with. The bad news is that it is in Oregon.

I have been thinking about moving back to the northwest for a while. I love Texas, but part of me misses mountains and home. Growing up I moved around a lot. Born in Los Anglos and would say I was originally form a town called Tujunga, California home for most of my life. That was until I moved to Winston, Oregon. I move to Winston in the beginning of 6th grade and other then a year spent back in Tujunga I lived there till 1991 when I moved to Fort Worth. Ever since Oregon has felt like home.

So this is a good thing, but I am comfortable here and I have lots of wonderful friends that I will miss with all my heart. This has not been an easy decision. I wish I had more time…

April 05, 2003

Reaper Miniatures Tour

I went on the coolest tour this week. My friend Patrick wrote an article for Reaper Miniatures quarterly newsletter and Tuesday we went up and got the nickel tour. For those of you who do not know I play table top wargames. I especial enjoy the painting side of the hobby. You can see some of my work here. Reaper makes one of the games I play.

We got to see how miniatures are made, form sculpting, to casting, to the new studio painter. Her name is Anne Foerster and she has two Golden Deamon trophies on he desk. Golden Deamon is the golden glove of miniature painting contests. Ok, I am a geek. I understand this. But you have to see some of these peoples work. It is amazing.

Needless to say I was really impressed with her work. Welcome to Dallas.

April 02, 2003

It is sing along with heydan time!

Yo Ho ( A Pirates life for me) The Pirates of The Carribean

Yo ho, yo ho a pirates life for me
we pillage, we plunder, we rifle and loot
Drink up me 'earties, yo ho.
we kidnap and ravage and don't give a hoot

Drink up me 'earties, yo ho.
Yo ho yo ho, a pirate's life for me.
we extort, we pilfage, we filch and sack.
Drink up me 'earties yo ho

Maraude and embezzle and even hijack
Drink up me 'earties, yo ho.
Yo ho, yo ho a pirate's life for me.
We kindle and char and flame and ignite

Drink up me 'earties yo ho.
We burn up the city, we're really afright
Drink up me 'earties, yo ho!
We're rascals, scoundrels, villans and naves

Drink up me 'earties, yo ho.
We're devils and blacksheep and really bad eggs
Drink up me 'earties, yo ho!
Yo ho, yo ho a pirates life for me

We're beggars and blighters and ne'er do well cats
Drink up me 'earties, yo ho
I think we're loved by our mommies and dads.
Drink up me 'earties, yo ho!

April 01, 2003

Please read...

There are times in you life you get to do amazing things. Believing in your self and the people around you makes a magic happen. A small band of passionate people doing what they love can do great things. The times you can say “I am proud I was part of that.”

A little under 5 years ago, a good friend named Steve called me and asked if I was looking for a job. He had just started at this start-up company. Seven guys had something they thought was cool. It was not even a real product yet. They had very little real idea of what they wanted to do, but they wanted to try. So I went and interviewed.

It was the most unfair interview, by the end I would have gone to work for free. I did not even know what they made. The passion and drive I saw, was amazing and I wanted to be a part of it. They offered me a job and I took it. Two weeks latter on July 6th I started work.

I was lost, there was so much to do and so much I did not know. My first day I crashed the 1st ever lab prototype server. By the end of the day I was mortified, I felt completely over my head. I remember driving home many nights thinking if I could just figure this or that out. Reading everything I could get my hands on.

One night I worked on something for hours, it just was not working, reproducing my steps over and over. The nature of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I was proving that. 2 am that morning I woke up out of a dead sleep with the answer. I could not wait to get back into work, I must have shown up at 6am waiting for someone else to show up. I pulled up what I had been working on and the solution worked! You could not have found a more excited group of people.

That was the way most days at that company were. Some days you had the answers and someday you struggled. There was no one to call for help, it was just you and these brave souls to solve what ever came up. I was employee number 11.

Two years latter we had 70+ and were growing to fast to keep up. That was the problem. I can explain what happened and why, you see I knew what was really going on. We all worked together, the CEO down to the guy that handled freight, we were in this together. That is why it was no surprise, when we started to run out of capital. The company was merged with our competitor a couple of month latter.

We lost a lot of really great people in the merge, and tried to adjust. Looking back I think we could not have known how long that road would be. In the couple of years following we have lost more of those people every couple of months. Some found other dreams, some just could not fit in to a culture that does not understand being so excited about working somewhere you would have work for free. This week we are losing all but a hand full. Once again I am proud to have been number among those people…

So I am unemployed, but at the moment I feel the story of Netier Technologies is more important to tell. That is the amazing thing I helped build, and to the end of my days it will be more then a company or a product some one can buy.