I cannot sleep.
With the very late flight and every thing going though my head tonight I cannot sleep. Monday was my last day at Wyse. Monday night I flew out to Oregon for an interview with a company in Wilsonville. The interview seem to go well, so I should hear something this week or next. I have a lead on a very interesting job here in Dallas. Next week I am supposed to have lunch with someone from that company. So things look good.
Tonight I have spent time thinking about things I want to do. Here I am in a place where I have some time and resources to change things in my life. In life we get so few chances to really take time to do things. I have been thinking more about making movies. On the flight last night I finished Robert Rodriguez’s book ‘rebel without a crew.’ If you remember this has been on my mind since February. “Stop aspiring, start doing.” So there is a dream.
I have been thinking about my Dad. He and I have not spent much time around each other. We do not know each other very well you could say. I have been thinking of something I want to do. Dad has a love of old cars. He is a wizard of finding, collecting, tearing apart and fixing up old cars. Myself I love old cars but have never been very mechanical. What if I took sometime off and had Dad and I find some old car and fix it up. Take a couple months off and spend it getting to know my Dad.
I have not talked to him about this yet. I need to call him.
These are the things that are rolling around in my head. So I could pay off some debts, take a new job do the logical thing or spend that money on time. Oddly I feel like I about to define who I am… at 34. If this part of my life was a film would you watch it? Would I?
Comments
You might remember my saying, at one time or another: "Further proof we're a docudrama for space aliens".
I think the last ten years of your life would be a quite interesting ER type TV show.
On the other hand, Lis Hudson (in 2000) told me no one would ever buy a screenplay unfolding the tale of Josef and Natalie over the same time period. It would be simply be considered unblelivable.
The drama coninues...
Of course I like to believe I'm friends with the author.
Posted by: Josef | July 3, 2003 07:43 PM
so, if you are serious about the movie stuff, we should talk next week. I was grumping about for awhile in disalusionment with some of the experiances I had when I was making video and film, but I can do it with people who know how to play, I'm game. Besides, I've had some things flying around in my head for awhile now and it's getting to the point that the inertia is bound to fling one of them out soon.
Posted by: kelly | July 4, 2003 12:09 PM
maybe you could come build alternative homes with us?
Posted by: Matt Richardson | July 5, 2003 08:13 AM