Hey Dan

I have expressed my emotions to myself in a number of ways. It helps me cope with a set of emotions that are sometimes very broken. What I mean by expressing my emotions to myself is that I come up with a visual image in my head, an analogy of what my brain is feeling. I say my brain and not me because sometimes it is just my brain and reality has nothing to do with what is going on in there. Over that last couple of months my analogy is a highway.

I feel like my emotions are driving on a lonely highway at night. The scene is complete with darkness being pushed back by headlights exposing a dotted line in the gloom. There is this feeling when you look off into the darkness at the side of the road that the sadness is very close. I can make it seem more distant by going faster. The faster I go, the more exciting the place I am feels. Sometimes racing is just about pushing yourself to go faster.

This summer I kept my normal July mopes at bay with this image. Like I said, life is good. This is just inside my head, a lost highway inside my head.