Too Hard.
Sometimes I feel like it is just too hard. I feel school and other things are just not going as well as I would like. Math is kicking my butt, not just because I have not done fractions in 20 years, also because keeping up with the workload is killing me. Tonight I found out that I missed an on-line quiz. I spent most of last night and tonight doing the 6 assignments due for class this week. During that process I forgot to look to see if there was an online quiz last due. There was it was due last night.
Additionally, tonight my Java II instructor called me stupid. I misunderstood one of his poorly worded assignments. This has become par for the course in Java. I have not gotten more then a 95 on an assignment since the first one. Which is kind of discouraging since this is the 3rd time I have taken class that is teaching this same martial. No, I got A’s in both classes. I took the continuing education class on Java and C++, both taught the exact same syntax. Granted C++ is a different language, but it is very similar syntax. I am now hopping to get a B in a computing language I use everyday.
I don’t feel I am doing well in photography either. Just don’t have the time to shoot any of the assignments. I have put some serious thought into dropping my ‘fun’ class.
The rest of my life is, well maybe it is just my outlook right now. I really feel it is all just too hard.
Comments
Life comes and goes in cycles. Sometimes it is hard, and at other times, it is good. Sadly, the latter often seem to breeze by all too quickly whle the former bogs us down in the pit of despair. School is tough enough on its own. Add to it a full time job, a marriage, faire, and crappy teachers, it only serves to make it worse. Remember, however, that the tough times will pass just as the good times do. But, until the next good time rolls around, hang in there and try to smile. Smiles, even forced ones, are like lighting a candle in the darkness. They make everything else seem a little bit brighter and a little bit better.
Posted by: Dana B | November 3, 2006 01:55 PM
What you're doing is tough, there's no mistake. There are some people that could not manage it. I believe, however, that you are one of the ones who can do tough things, and do them well. It's hard when you feel like you have so much on your plate that you can't really give your best to anything. You can do it, though. You've got friends to support you, a lovely lady who loves you, and the strength of mind and character to keep striving for the best in you.
That sounds like a winning combo to me.
Oh, and the Java teacher sounds like a real idiot. They CERTAINLY aren't a very good teacher, because good teachers don't call their students stupid.
Posted by: Lys | November 4, 2006 12:04 PM
hang in there! I'm sure you'll make it through. Don't beat yourself up too much about missing one quiz - you have so much on your plate!
Posted by: karen | November 5, 2006 11:26 AM